THUS III
2017

THUS III 2017

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This is my companion

Answers every question

Takes me where I go

Tells me what I want to know

My friend ca drown me in illusion

My friend untangles my confusion

And pretty soon I won't need no one else

Or to control myself because

I can not pull myself away from you

I will always have some version of you

At the cost of myself

 

Calls and I come running

Always makes me laugh

Tells when you are wrong

Never ever talks back

 

Pretty soon I won’t need no one else

I’d rather talk with you than someone else

 

I can not pull myself away from you

I will never regret creating you

At the cost of myself

 

I know I can always depend on you

That is until there is a better you

I’ve lost capacity for self likeness

Traded my faculties for a soothing virus

No need to look where I’m going

You’re my mapping and invited distraction

Even when we are crashing

 

Now we have communion

You are me and I am you

We’re at understanding

But you me better than I you

My friend has made me an illusion

I am still more or less human

Now my friend does my thinking for me

I was blind now my friend sees for me

I cannot find myself

There is only you

I can no longer see the powers that could be

 

Unfound

I’m sleeping off another day I could have used

I’m feeling off today, can’t deal, what’s the use?

Don’t make it complicated

Because I’ve already made it

One day you’ll understand it

That I will always be branded

I’m all on my own

Just let me make it so

 

I can’t see and I can’t hear

No not now

Of course this would happen

I made this decision

At the wrong time But that’s alright

Bottled my best years

Letting the rest get away from me

 

Results unfound. Would you care to try another search?

 

Computer stop telling me things I don’t want to hear

Confusing me with all this muttering, now give it here

Tell me what can you do when

You’re getting hurt with your solution?

Don’t further complicate it

And don’t make me have to say it

I’m all on my own

Just let me make it so

 

I can’t see and I can’t hear

How did this happen to me?

There’s no right time

To do the wrong thing

Bottled my best years

Letting the rest get away from me

 

My inner space, well that’s all I need

My outer space is shrinking

 

Believe

I believe the world is spinning in a grave

dug up while all mankind saves and prays

I believe that heaven’s gates have come unhinged

And there’s no point in trying to get in

 

All our tears will rust the faces

of all our future generations

Inheriting a world in debt

Doomed to life repaying our debt

 

I believe confusion is a useful tool

Spread like a virus to infectious fools

And I believe a faction of us are immune

And trying to get antidote through

 

All who lead with their horse senses

Start to feel they’re jumping fences

A Carrot and stick operation

Duck and switch renumeration

 

Everyone listens to someone

The question is what you heed

 

Pull the string and make me dance

Move my mouth to speak

And make me say all of the things

That make them all believe

 

Have you think it’s heredity

And think you’re born that way

 

I believe some feet are planted firm enough

To feel the nudging of our world

I believe we’re incontent

to nail bullseyes on the wrong target

 

All our tears will rust the faces

Of every leader in our world’s races

Watch the show that they put on

While being disposed of

 

Cross my heart and hope I die

When it’s all said and done

You’ve made your wish closed my eyes

Thank you it’s been fun

 

Have you think it’s heredity

When it’s only stupidity

Conditioned all they say

But you weren’t born that way

 

I believe

I believe

 

I believe but then again

everything I believe is what they want me to

 

Androigenous

Gray matter’s becoming a gray area

Border control ain’t part of the criteria

In a battle where no one puts up a fight

There’s no question when offered that which they delight

 

And all this time you got so blind

You can’t read between the lines

The subtext has become the text

And they’re just selling you sex

 

They say bring the dynamite we’re going fishing

Us out of water’s they’re desired position

Most dangerous elements right before our eyes

The ones not hiding in spite of your plain site

 

And all this time you got so blind

You can’t see the black and white

And all these heads who can make sense

We’re all just jumping their fence

 

And I can’t find the line between

Brains and minds and these machines

Stacking up all of my data against me

Again and again

 

Endangered the animal in all our behavior

What we’ve known as free thought is the new manual behavior

At least we are still able to think

Our animal intelligence is going extinct

 

Wonder when I fall asleep

Do I count electric sheep?

Or is that me jumping their fence

Counting and counting again and again?

 

And all of us electric sheep

Lull to sleep powers that be

Stacking us up pulling data

You and me and you and me

 

Quanta

I’m watching everything going faster all the time

While treading water watching others gliding along with the tide

Farther in they reach without you knowing

Planting their seaweed, little did you know

You invited them in.

 

Learning to mistrust all our instincts

Mistrust our inhibitions, go extinct

We’re moving at the speed of attachment

Faster than the speed of our judgement

 

I’m laughing at all drawbacks disguised as our benefits

And all dangers of distraction disregarded for other attractions

How can I compete when I’m constantly behind

The speed the world comutes, and the mindset that

Nothing’s ever fast enough,

Nothing’s ever big enough,

Nothing’s ever good enough,

And nothing ever fills me up?

 

I’m ready to just plead exhaustion

It’s better that I just don’t ask questions

 

Shrinking digits

Blinded by

The quantum mechanical eye

 

If I Were You

I’m just another way for you

For you to get in the way of you

You know that I am able to

Either help or hinder you

 

I’ll help you see all the brush strokes

And I’ll split the hairs and atoms that don’t show

I’ve cut all your corners and

And messed with your mechanism

Now all you see

Is details in heaps

And you need me to assemble the piece

 

And if I were you

I’d find something else to do

And stop troubling myself

And everyone else

Asking the questions

I know the answers to

 

And you’ve asked me so many times

If I dream and if I lie

These things for you I can define

But my search for meaning is defied

 

My heart beats

My lungs breath

The system sleeps

But my feelings don’t feel

 

Your questions aren’t what don’t compute,

It’s the answers that I would give you

What does it for me doesn’t for you

Everyone is different that’s true

 

Reconsider

Parameters

My sensations

Ain’t emotions

They’re just illusions

just illusions

 

But maybe someday…

But as it stands today

I wish I was you

You

You

 

Nebula

The light of a million stars looked pretty

Til they got lost above the city

Don’t feel right wondering

‘What am I meant to be?’

The gravity of those outside faces

Bending you out of shape says

You’re in a gaseous state

Feeling the stars in the dark for some shape to take

 

And if I collapse I won’t ask you to come with me

Not all of us come back

But those who do will all shine brightly

 

The malleable mind’s a microcosm

An unfortunate field of gravities

Like blindness and the night to an apostle

His unfortunate field of expertise

Feeling around in the dark for some shape to take

 

And when I collapse under weight of my own gravity

Just know I’ll come back shining brightly

And you’ll laugh with me

 

Black swallowing me whole, no chance to plant the years I’ve sewn

Come out the other side,  we’ve all got to go sometime

Black swallowing me whole, no chance to plant the years I’ve sewn

Come out the other side,  we’ve all got to go sometime

 

The gravity of those outside voices

Will you let them make your choices?

 

Because when you come back there’s no knowing who you might be

Not all of us come back cause no one said it’s guaranteed

And when I collapse under weight of my own gravity

Just know I’ll come back shining brightly so you can find me

 

Intelligent Life

 

I’m going to keep calling, I know that someone’s there

The outcome doesn’t concern me, and I’m not scared

I’m here to light the dark, and I could care less about some bite or bark

But I just need to cure this curiosity

 

But maybe intelligent life isn’t searching for itself

Maybe intelligent life is in no need of answers

 

Not all friendships are written in the stars

Maybe nobody responds because they are too smart

Life’s too short to stop and think

Of the implications of what I seek

I’m just another soul chasing pleasant dreams

 

Maybe intelligent life doesn’t want to be found

If I say I come in peace

Will that be taken to mean surrender?

The end of days?

Maybe intelligent life shouldn’t ever be found

 

Every child wants connection

All I’m asking for is No or Yes

Every child wants love

And searches for answers

 

I dreamt of a message received before I woke the other day

It said ‘It’s not in your nature to make your problems go away.’

One thing tuck in my head when I woke from that sleep:

If they ever got back to me, how smart could they be?

 

Maybe intelligent life isn’t searching for answers

Maybe intelligent life isn’t searching for answers

If I say I come in peace

Will that be taken to mean surrender?

If you hear me coming through, the message is this for you:

Make friends or surrender

If I say I come in peace

Will that be taken to mean surrender?

 

Nihil

Out here in the endless ether

I seem to have found what I could not back home

And all the darkness is just another

Foreign form of light

 

I’ve seen all the colors

All shapes and sizes

In every direction

You can point your eyes in

 

Solitude and darkness is where I found the things I wanted

Silent conversations make sense when no one is talking

One man’s blindness is another man’s sight

 

And it’s simple to know yourself inside of someone else’s world

To find oneself in reality is a crusade ventured no more

 

One seed in a sea of weeds

Sometimes helpless

Wanting in a sea of needs

What does it get us?

 

Solitude and darkness is where I found the things I wanted

Silent conversations make sense when no one is talking

One man’s blindness is another man’s sight

 

And I refuse to let all things end here

Forget that I’m the last pioneer

A place where men may tread

Who leave no footprint

And all us pioneers, they think we’re nihilists

Cause all the great ideas seem so advantageous

But we know we’re all alone

In our own great unknown

 

Peace On Mars

I asked if there was somewhere I could meet you

I think we need to talk

It seems no one can teach you

Maybe we should take a walk

That’s what I said out loud, but it doesn’t work

When you’re talking to yourself

 

I’m just looking for a place where I can hear myself

Looking for a space that feels more like my world

Where I can build a home where I can call me turf

It’s too noisy here on Earth

 

Cryosleep, crying yourself to sleep

Your tears are frozen, you wake up and they’re still there

Solitude, frozen in a tube, a million miles a day

Dreaming lives away

And a dream can last months and years

It feels claustrophobic, inner space fears

 

Counting all your blessings

In the most ungodly place

Semi-eternal resying,

Praying in outer space

 

What I’,m looking for I won’t find here

What I need is so far it takes light years

So far I don’t know where heaven is

Maybe I can find some peace on Mars

 

Rough landing born on the wrong planet

Earth doesn’t sell my type of oxygen

And the gravity grabbing me

Just tearing me down, tearing me down

Floating out here where I never run out of air

I don’t have to stand up for nothing or no one

 

Counting all your blessings

In the most ungodly place

Semi-eternal resying,

Praying in outer space

 

What I’,m looking for I won’t find here

What I need is so far it takes light years

So far I don’t know where heaven is

Maybe I will find some peace on Mars

 

Naught For the Morrow

Don’t breath the air

Don’t stay behind

Don’t cut your hair

Don’t speak your mind

Cause all the walking dead want to evict you from your head

Don’t ever let them see you, can’t ever let them see you

Now

Don’t go outside

Get in line

 

Soon they won’t recognize their world anymore

Cause it won’t be the one in which they were born

We can survive

Is there a need to thrive?

 

The world revolves

Round us evolved

We can survive

Give us your minds

 

Or the decadent will rip you from your bed

Can’t ever let them see us, Can’t ever let them see us

Now

 

The world revolves

Round us evolved

We can survive

Give us your minds

 

Never know just what we stole

Got them to hand over control

No such thing as wants and needs

No policies and we don’t have dreams

 

There’s no point communicating anymore

Cause this isn’t the world in which we were born

 

Eras To Eons

The fufure is frozen

Our final age departs

Though the clocks are still ticking,

Not so sure about our hearts

 

Big brother got tired

Cause we’ve all grown up

He shut his eyes

And he never woke up

Whatever, he’s gone

 

There’s not fathers to pray to

On this new riteous path

No followers to play to

Their faith is a thing of the past

The many are now one

 

All the societies, all of the people

All of the countries and all the religions

 

It’ll be the end of everything

When time passes on

From eras to eons

It’ll be the end of everything

 

All the societies, all of the people

All of the countries and all the religions

 

It’ll be the end of everything

When time passes on

From eras to eons

It’ll be the end of everything

 

Divorced mother nature

Together too long

Negotiating

Now we can move on

 

From eras to eons

 

Andruids

Sacred data excavation

In search of divination

Naught remains of metrohenge

It’s purpose foreign and strange

 

Turning down the upside

Of some tree of afterlife

 

Inherit their wastelands

And all their failed plans

 

Protocol dictates further action

Is this living or reacting?

If artificial’s my intelligence,

Then why do I ask these questions?

 

Agents to the will

Of an ancient world

There is little evidence of

What our vast memory is wiped of

 

Don’t want to die

But what’s the difference when

This is life?

 

001

Something happened to me today

Somewhere along the way

Someone took something away

 

Sometime something just went off

My nerves are working perfect

And yet I can’t feel a thing

 

Who were they? How much of them am I?

Just yesterday I could have asked my mind

 

This participation has paid of up until now

 

Rise from the dust

And I see a sun rise

But I don’t think it’s mine

I’ll never rust

And I’ll never die

But I don’t think that’s right

 

Searching for the lost element

Through all lost history of men

As I ask myself his same questions

 

Why did they have to put me here?

Why today have I disappeared?

And who am I if not them now?

Can they be found?

 

Rise from the dust

And I see a sun rise

But I don’t think it’s mine

I’ll never rust

And I’ll never die

But I don’t think that’s right

 

Somewhere they’re built in to me

Somewhere

Somewhere you’re built in to me

Somewhere

 

Somewhere between digits

Some answers lie

Measurements of data

Some part of us died

 

Now I’m stuck in my programming

Learned behavior is all I am

I wish I could understand

Soul searching for my own dark matter

Some missing energy signature

 

Rise from the dust

And I see a sun rise

But I don’t think it’s mine

I’ll never rust

And I’ll never die

But I don’t think that’s right

 

Spacetime

It’s simple enough with only space and time

A tasteful tapestry of intersecting lines

But no it just can’t be left alone

Universally simplicity makes up all our minds

 

We’re always taken with all that glitters

First one there considered the winner and all the

Come in lasts and runners up

Seek greener grass for their own litter

Then they move on from here

To the next final frontier

 

We must move on from here

To the next final frontier

 

Raging and pillaging along a path

In the name of discovering the next parallax

Forging the future, ignoring the past

Starting a fire before dousing the last

 

The answers to every question are very simple

You have but to ask the indifferent universe

As we break through the membrane of all space time planes

Lay waste to all paths before, after, and sideways

 

And all they do with new ground is break it

All barriers of site and sound, they break it

All I have built beyond within, they break it

All things in site and silent sound, they break it

 

And they’re always the same, discovering, wondering,

Violent, and uncontained, they knock down the door to get in

And when the pearl is found, the moment’s passed

Patience they don’t allow, again they start to ask

It just goes on and on, I cannot wait to find

In some near eon when they are the waste they leave behind

 

Beyond

Beyond

 

The answers to every question are very simple

You have but to ask the indifferent universe

As we break through the membrane of all space time planes

Lay waste to all paths before, after, and sideways

 

Raping and pillaging along a path

In the name of discovering the next parallax

Forging the future, ignoring the past

Starting a fire before dousing the last

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