THUS II [standard Edition]
2012

THUS II [standard Edition] 2012

Killing the Beautiful

You gave yourself the axe

With no chance to come back

Like sugar twisted heat

a smell not quite as sweet

 

Poignant truth drains soil from the ground

not buoyant as they drown

 

So how'd you know how to hurt without the pain...?

To kill the beautiful people...?

You've got to know

that your fiction is fixing to kill you

 

Someone had you attacked

With no chance to react

dropped what they couldn't use

and rearranged the facts

 

So how'd you know how to hurt without the pain...?

To kill the beautiful people...?

You've got to know

that your fiction is fixing to kill you

Poignant truth drains soil from the ground

not buoyant as they drown

 

I have seen it so many times before...

 

Between the Lines

Well I suppose you think you're pretty smooth

And I'm pretty sure I don't come off too astute

But I don't have to know you all that well, I know your type

Already had my taste, don't need another bite

 

Cause it's easy reading when you read between the lines...

 

The words you put in my mouth

Won't stop truth from coming out

Ain't gonna feel to proud when

You see them chewed and spit out

I can't take the way you lie

And I don't like what's true

I hate the things I have to say

When I'm talking about you

 

Cause it's easy reading when you read between the lines...

 

Lease On Life

My life reads like a users guide

to losing someones mind

and I'm still surprised I was able

to live this kind of life while

 

 I was writhing in pain

and laying on my side

That's when I realized

What real life was like

 

This lease on life has run up and I can't catch up

If I keep on writing how then can I read on?

 

This bookmark in the pages

of my ages

Holds me in a chapter

you don't read til after

you see lifesigns

well where is my lifeline?

 

Writing out pages

to keep me from dying

Prolonging life sources

Reads like beating dead horses

 

Crime Scene

Stealing, stolen

Bleeding, broken

Healing, tolling

Defeated, swollen

I fought the good fight

Apperently

The good cause was slightly

Too good for me

 

I feel so alone

I feel so alone

I am the scene of a crime

Won't you cry for my horrible life?

 

I'm feeling ditched

cause I can't deny you

So I'm jumping ship

to vilify you

 

You've got a vision

And I've got mine

I can see everything

and you're fucking blind

 

I am the scene of a crime

Won't you cry for my horrible life?

On your shoulder my tears crocodile

Watching you out the corner of my eye

 

Made my plan and took my stand

Held out my heart right in my hand

But no one seems to take that bait

And now it's too late for me to change

 

So what do I do?

What will I be?

What can I be?

 

I am the scene of a crime

Won't you cry for my horrible life?

On your shoulder my tears crocodile

Watching you out the corner of my eye

 

Surface Depth

You say I live my life ten miles below the ocean

In a bubble with no light and I'm just floating

You say

My plans and schemes

Meaningless dreams

I swim too deep

Well that's how it seems

 

To someone who wants to say

They know what it's like at the deep end

I say it ain't for sure

And I think you're just pretending

 

To worry I won't survive the depth

This story has got another end

 

Levity

that's something that I know I'm known for

Among my friends

If that is what we must call them

Poverty

Sometimes, emotionally

But in the end

Maybe you just don't know me

 

Pride yourself in knowing where my surf is

Predicting where I'm going

But up there on the surface

You've got no way of knowing

 

It's easy

To survive

Where you can breath

But with closed eyes

 

You can't possibly

See where you are going

Fundamentally

Mentally we're all growing

 

I prefer to keep my eyes open

My story will have another end

 

Levity

that's something that I know I'm known for

Among my friends

If that is what we must call them

Poverty

Sometimes, emotionally

But in the end

Maybe you just don't know me

 

You and me

Are at opposite ends

This story

I think has found an end

 

Levity

that's something that I know I'm known for

Among my friends

If that is what we must call them

Poverty

Sometimes, emotionally

But in the end

Maybe you just don't know me

 

Clones

I figure all the things I attain

I'll lose again someday

Am I the only one wondering

what the point is in making good decisions?

 

Saving up your duckets

For the day it's raining buckets?

I ain't ever paid my way

Out of a stormful of rain

 

The farther we get from the goals that we set

The harder it is to hold on to your head

Don't tell me again, cause I know what I said

I'm better off dying than dead

 

I'm saving up my tolerance

In case I never get to join the resistance

I turn around to see you joining

I'm now a member of that which I don't see the point in

 

Maybe I would have done a little better

If I fell in line instead of

Zygotes, gametes, and clones (as)

My sole postulate for drones

 

 

The farther we get from the goals that we set

The harder it is to hold on to your head

Don't tell me again, cause I know what I said

I'm better off dying than dead

 

 

I've gone too far in the wrong direction

To go back and try reconnecting

I've paid dearly for all decisions

I've made and all I can say is

 

 

The farther we get from the goals that we set

The harder it is to hold on to your head

Don't tell me again, cause I know what I said

I'm better off dying than dead

 

Leave Me

What's the point in these gears turning if they're just grinding and burning?

Why spin my wheels in the flood if it sinks me deeper in the mud?

Why keep on page turning if I don't feel I'm still learning?

Why not skip to the end and then throw it to the wind?

 

Cause there's nothing left to do

Why so concerned with what I choose?

I suggest to you listen to your words

Not mine and their intended use

 

I'm holding up this tent with sticks I found

And your outside world is raining down

My bubble world is gonna float to the surface

Long as I'm not troubled with your second guesses

Leave me

Leave me

 

All good things in life escape when you're holding them too close

And opposites attract when you can't let them go

It's hard to catch the wave when you're so out of phase

When all the words and phrases you say go to saving face

 

Don't you have something else to do?

I'm concerned with what you choose

What I suggest to you

is forget me and remember you

 

I'm holding up this tent with sticks I found

And your outside world is raining down

My bubble world is gonna float to the surface

Long as I'm not troubled with your second guesses

Leave me

Leave me

 

"You won't be moving up"

This is not my lot in life

"There's nothing you could have done"

I expected a lot from life

"In your youth, questioning"

Rejected the elders' state of mind

"If you want to be a man you'll leave yourself behind"

I'll never leave it all behind

 

Yeah

 

I'm holding up this tent with sticks I found

And your outside world is raining down

My bubble world is gonna float to the surface

Long as I'm not troubled with your second guesses

Leave me

Leave me

 

Low Life

Cause someones' satisfaction hangs within the balance

The root to evil's left to grow within my grounds

I took the higher route in lew of digging dirt and chosen silence

Guess I'm still expected to grow money trees

 

But that's okay

When you get paid

 

Take me out on another ride

Cause you can't admit it-

 

And when supposedly you hit the ceiling of your feelings

Why could you not have spoken to me of it clearly

Instead of breaking through the roof and tangling your family

inside a low life's non-existent money tree?

 

Guess I can't blame

You for your way

 

Take me out on another ride

Cause you can't admit that

You know that I'm right

 

I know it's a 92

And I don't mean a thing to you

But I've worked my bones harder than you

to get your bones back to you

 

So I'm at peace, but only with myself

 

So I'm at peace, but only with myself

So I'm at peace, but only with myself

 

The words you say

The games you play:

 

 

Take me out on another ride

Cause you can't admit it

You know that I'm right

 

A Brighter Future

I never said that I had any plans for you

So you tell me what you think I am supposed to do

Go find my life or simply continue

To be the messenger for your bad news?

 

I got your busy work but when it comes down to the line

The profit will be yours and breaking even will be mine

 

Yes it will

Yes it will

 

If I could see a brighter future it's only when I'm watching yours

The light at the end of the tunnel is only when I'm turned around

This story has no ending

It's like I'm just pretending

And the story's sad...

 

You never say exactly what it is you mean

How am I supposed to discern between ambiguity

You got me running everywhere and all around

Yet I'm supposed to continually keep my head down

 

"Keep your head down"

 

I'll do the dirty work but when it comes down to the line

You'll see just how dirty these hands can get of mine

 

If I could see a brighter future it's only when I'm watching yours

The light at the end of the tunnel is only when I'm turned around

This story has no ending

It's like I'm just pretending

And the story's sad...

 

Ponder the quality of life when I spend

Each and every day trying to get to the end

Feels like the story's ending

But then I'm just pretending

But the story's sad...

 

And if I could see into the future

I still don't feel reassured

cause the light in the tunnel

is behind me

 

If I could see a brighter future it's only when I'm watching yours

The light at the end of the tunnel is only when I'm turned around

This story has no ending

It's like I'm just pretending

And the story's sad...

 

The Way We Want

I can't discern where I end and where they begin

Chasing their spiral my head ends up reeling

Like a silent voice I'm always hearing

Whether or not I listen to what they're saying

 

"Why can't you be the way we want?

Why can't you be the way we want you to be?"

 

Why can't you be the way we want?

Why can't you be the way we want you to be?

We'll give you what

we say you want

Everybody else

Can't be wrong...

 

And while you're teaching, preaching they are preying

Sneakin deep inside all our childrens' dreaming

Streamlining them with their time-bomb scheming

Until one day they get to thinking:

 

"Why can't I be the way they want?

Why can't I be the way they want me to be?"

 

Why can't you be the way we want?

Why can't you be the way we want you to be?

We'll give you what

we say you want

Everybody else

Can't be wrong...

 

Statistics, ballistics, ignore the homeless misfits

Blacklisted Citizens, not feeling the stimulus

 

Why can't you be the way we want?

Why can't you be the way we want you to be?

We'll give you what

we say you want

Everybody else

Can't be wrong...

 

The Line

Frustrated and wholly out of self control

Taking a day off

of all this I've been putting on

I just need time

To get a good space

Every day's the same

Gonna change the pace

 

Cause I have to say that line again

No ink left, just grinding the pen

Another day another dime instead

No reason for me to pretend

 

If there's anything you want to tell me

Say it now or wait for the day that

Somebody wants to soak up your rules

Bury themselves in your box of tools

 

Cause I have to say that line again

No ink left, just grinding the pen

Another day another dime instead

No reason for me to pretend

 

I can feel my animal cry

Cause I'm not being treated

Like a human being

You say I'm flammable and

I won't last

Well here's how I catch on fire

 

I am through with being screwed

It ain't just me cause you should be too

All the food that you have chewed

Someone threw it out and gave it right back to you

 

Cause I have to say that line again

No ink left, just grinding the pen

Another day another dime instead

No reason for me to pretend

 

I have to say that line again

I have to say that line again

I have to say that line again

I have to say that line again

 

Dead End

I've been painting a long time

But you don't get the picture

Screaming inside

While you quietly quote scripture

 

It's in your nature to do what you do

But your type of creature seems so unnatural to me

 

I am filled up without

And with you I am empty

Years later I figured out

Adding you subtracted me

Our lives are not intended

to be all that dead ended

Drive this stake into the minds of men

 

I thought I had something stuck in my eye and when

I looked away I realized it was you

 

Between love and hating

And other lines I can read between this

Hopeful hiding

and hateful patronizing

 

I am filled up without

And with you I am empty

Years later I figured out

Adding you subtracted me

Our lives are not intended

to be all that dead ended

Drive this stake into the minds of men

 

This cycle has repeated

Long before Thus

This cycle has repeated

Long before the Dawn

 

And now you've had your chance

To turn around and go back

It's down to you and I

And I ain't wasting anymore time

 

Drive this stake into the minds of men

This utensil through my head

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